For some reason, when I saw this flower, it struck me as commanding.  It commanded my attention and it made me think about what makes US a force?  What allows us to show up and bloom in our own lives?  For me, that is being embodied.  It's showing up connected to our whole self, present and open to each moment.  Because presence is always in the NOW.  Which means we aren't laden with the weight of our past, or fearful about the future.  We show up ready to meet the needs of THIS moment--and that's compelling.  We're owning who we are and showing up fully.  
 
Why do we care if WE are commanding?  I don't mean commanding as in, "I'm going to get my way and force others to bend to my will."  I mean commanding as in, "Here I am, ready to own who I am and to share it in the world". That's compelling and powerful.  How do we do that?  

We've done exercises in class where we slouch, caving our hearts back.  We let our heads drop forward with our gazes downward.  We sit with that posture and notice how we feel.  Try it yourself.  How does it feel?  What would it be like to meet others from this space? 
 
Now let's try this.  Lift the crown of your head and the top of your chest up to the sky.  Spread your collar bones wide. The spine is elongated and the heart faces forward into the world. How does this feel?  It may feel different physically.  How does it feel when you think of interacting with others?  
 
For most of us, the sunken heart, head down posture makes us feel defensive, vulnerable and closed off.  But the opposite is true when we lift our head and heart.  Here is the posture of someone ready to engage!  And we feel that.  We feel more open.  We feel more alert.  We are those things and we enter our lives ready to take command. 
 
Mostly, our posture is somewhat unconscious.  It develops over time as we respond to the world.  And the world can be tough!  We can subconsciously begin to brace ourselves.  Or hide ourselves away.  And the world responds to that person.  And you respond AS that person.  But we can become conscious and choose to dismantle our old habits, be they postural or the beliefs that grew up as we braced for the next tough thing or responded by closing ourselves away.
 
We can awaken and step into the truth of who we are, tapping into that power.
 
To me, it starts with remembering who I am.  In yoga, we reference the "spark of the divine" which refers to the inherent divinity, innate intelligence and spiritual consciousness within every person.  And because we hold that spark, we are always connected to the Divine consciousness.  We are one with all. Through our yoga practice as we develop our conscious presence, we fan that spark into a radiant flame that connects us to a greater understanding of the universe and our true selves.  We move from a place of more stability and peace, power and potential.
 
Does that mean awful, random things won't happen to us?  Of course not, but being present, awake and available in our lives gives us more capacity to meet ALL the ups and downs of our human experience.  It gives us access to the truth of who we are, an embodiment of the divine consciousness, and that can empower us to make our mark. 

This is beautiful Bodega Bay in California, a rocky inlet of the Pacific Ocean.  It was a spectacular, powerful place that hosted part of my workshop on deepening our ability to listen to and sense the world around and within us.  I learned so much there, but one of the most powerful lessons concerned witnessing and being witnessed with pure presence and how it helps us to form healthy boundaries rather than destructive barriers with the world around us.  Doesn't our world need more of that?!

We talk about our "Inner Witness" frequently in yoga.  One of the great goals of our practice is to develop the capability of sitting in our center to find that mindful inner awareness devoid of judgement and attachments to story.  It's a practice, as in we have to keep practicing because it's hard!  Our lives are full of emotional pulls that keep us mired in the stories.  Our physical experiences, fed by and feeding those emotional reactions, are really compelling. 

But one of the benefits of developing our witnessing capabilities is that it helps us to form healthy boundaries--rather than destructive barriers that keep us cut off from our own deepest Truth and productive and fulfilling interactions with the world.  

This is such an essential skill --one our world desperately needs--that I am prioritizing sharing HOW to do this.  I've got a free seminar introducing some of the concepts on Oct. 4 and the 3-hour workshop on October 18.  Check out www.fundamentalyoga.net/special-events.html for more information about the events.

In the Edge Express you will learn to:

• Be more present in your life
• Ground safely into your own energy structure
• Contain your own chi field for more energy
• Interact compassionately without enmeshing with others
• Calm your racing monkey mind
• Stop using your own electromagnetic field, especially during healing work
• Develop an empowered life stance in tune with the Universe 

I was walking in the West Parish Cemetery this weekend and amongst all the beautiful trees I saw this cluster of bright leaves.  It seemed a little early for them to turn so I took a closer look.  Many of the leaves on this tree were browning at the edges and here and there were these bright clusters of leaves looking all ready for their fall. 

Last week in classes we talked about how important it is to dream and imagine.  Gloria Steinham said, “Without leaps of imagination or dreaming, we lose the excitement of possibilities. Dreaming, after all is a form of planning.” 

I fully embrace the need to dream, to give ourselves time to imagine new ways of solving problems, relating to others and breaking free from our old paradigms. 

In the process of using our imaginations, we can generate new paths, new awareness about what’s important to us, and even new goals.  And yet…those goals themselves can become their own limiting boxes.  Which leads me to the 38 Special song, “Hold on Loosely.”  In the chorus they sing,
“So hold on loosely, but don’t let go.
If you cling too tightly, you’re gonna lose control.
Your baby needs someone to believe in,
And a whole lot of space to breathe in…
So hold on loosely, but don’t let go.
If you cling to tightly, your gonna lose it, you’re gonna lose control.”

Good advice for relationships, yes!  But also good advice for us.  Hold your dreams loosely.  Give them space to breathe and develop amidst all the twists and turns that come our way.  Which brings me back to my tree friend with the yellow leaves.  It had it’s mission.  It produced a crown full of gorgeous leaves.  But in the stress of our current climate, it made a minor course correction.  It let some of the leaves turn yellow in preparation for letting them go early.  And the tree will continue, not feeding what it can’t or shouldn’t sustain.  Once again, nature instructs us on how to work with the world’s natural rhythms.  Thank you, nature!

We, too, need to hold our dreams and plans loosely and be willing  to make adjustments.  Rigidity is perhaps the enemy.  As we learn to let go a bit, we develop the flexibility and openness to flow in ways we might never have imagined.  It's a discipline!  Oh how we love the illusion of control.  But we can keep our focus on the long-term goals and let go of our belief that there's only "one way" to get there.  We may find that even our most difficult obstacles shine a light on a new path.

​Let the sun set and welcome a new day!  Sometimes, we are so ingrained in the way things have been that we forget that each day is new, and so are the possibilities that go with it.  We become rigid and shut down to the newness around us.  Think about it.  What shuts you down?  Are you rushed?  Have you felt inadequate, judged or blamed?  Are we controlled by our habits? All these things undermine our ability to trust ourselves and our ability to use new information or see new ways of doing and being.  
 
One of the books I’ve referenced for years is Move into Life by Anat Baniel.  The book explores how the brain works and offers ways to wake it up so that we stay vital and resilient.  In yoga we call it “beginner’s mind,” approaching everything without preconceptions and with a joyful enthusiasm to learn—as if our experience was entirely new.  The author's methodology turns to the science of neuroplasticity and what she calls the “learning switch” to help us continue creating new neurons and connections.  This approach helps us break out of stagnation to increase our physical comfort and functioning, as well as to enhance our clarity, creativity and joy. 
 
Whether through injury, trauma or the inertia of routines and habits, our brains become less resilient.  Research shows that in middle age brain cells start to die off at a fast pace.  But the production of brain cells continues and can be enhanced.  For instance, we know that even with moderate exercise, new brain cells begin branching out to other brain cells and form new connections.  Our habits, beliefs and attitudes can form limitations in thoughts and movements, but stimulating our brains creates vitality and ease.  These come about when we move beyond what we “know” into flexibility, creativity and possibility.
 
I hadn’t reached for this book in awhile but recently pulled it out—and laughed at how parallel it’s messages are to the things we’ve been working on over the last year.  Here’s a quick sum-up of the “Nine Essentials of NeuroMovement,” the system that Baniel practices:

1. Movement with attention-mindfulness in action!
2. Engage the learning switch—notice the small differences even in rote things.  Noticing newness wakes the brain.
3. Subtlety-find new zest by noticing the littlest shifts and nuances.
4. Variation-awaken the senses and open new doors to playfulness and growth.
5. Slow-this gets the brain’s attention and gives it time to integrate.
6. Enthusiasm-this is our amplifier that helps us really focus and transform our experiences.
7. Flexible goals-"holding our goals loosely" gives the brain opportunities to discover new ways of achieving our dreams.
8. Imagination and dreams-they allow us to move beyond our limits to create new possibilities.
9. Awareness-blows apart expectation by bringing us into the present moment.

 
I find it inspiring and empowering to realize that we have unlimited capacity because of the miracle of the ever-changing, evolving richness and texture to our lives.   As we embrace and notice this cornucopia of experience, we awaken and expand along with it.  We are made new in every moment!

Lately the energy and self-study work I've been doing has very much brought to mind the idea that we need to feed what we want to grow.  That can come off as a cheesy "positive psychology" that can leave us feeling like a failure if we fail to achieve the life we'd like to have.
 
But modern science supports the idea that we CAN affect our reality through our inputs.  In his book, The Brain: The Story of You, David Eagleman writes:
‘Here’s the key: the brain has no access to the world outside. Sealed within the dark, silent chamber of your skull, your brain has never directly experienced the external world, and it never will. Instead, there’s only one way that information from out there gets into the brain. … Everything you experience — every sight, sound, smell — rather than being a direct experience, is an electrochemical rendition in a dark theater.’”
 
The electrical impulses themselves are neutral, but in order to conserve energy and survive, our brain has developed mechanisms to improve efficiency, such as using the Reticular Activating System to sort and filter what is most important.  This bundle of nerves just above the brain stem determines what the brain will focus on and uses neuro-shortcuts or habit loops to strengthen and reinforce what it "knows."  This can help or hurt us.  Early experiences, for instance, can create harmful beliefs that we aren't good enough, or good ones like, most people are basically good. When the beliefs form our outlook, our brain chooses its focus to reinforce it.
 
The good news is, we can affect our brain system and its pathways.   In her Dec. 13, 2015 article, “Epigenetics:  How Your Thoughts Change your Brain, Cells, and Genes,”  Debbie Hampton wrote that “expectancies and learned associations have been shown to change brain chemistry and circuitry which results in real physiological and cognitive outcomes, such as less fatigue, lower immune system reaction, elevated hormone levels, and reduced anxiety.” 
 
EXAMPLES
Let’s look at some examples where this effect was tested and proven.  In one of the pieces I read about this topic (Science Proves Your Thoughts Influence Your Reality and Shape Your Brain for Better or Worse-You Choose, 11/28/22) writer T. Cheney wrote:
 
"In Jonah Lehrer’s book, Proust Was a Neuroscientist, he tells of experiments conducted by Frederic Brochet in 2001 at the University of Bordeaux. Appropriately enough, the experiments involved wine. In the first one, Brochet took two glasses of the exact white wine, colored one of them red with food coloring, and proceeded to get observations from 57 wine experts. The experts described the “red” wine in terms of its “jamminess” and other red wine jargon. Not one of them identified it as a white wine.

In another test, Brochet took the same medium-quality Bordeaux and served it in two different bottles. One bottle was labeled to look like a fancy, fine wine while the other was labeled to resemble a common table wine. The wine experts gave the exact same wine in different bottles very different ratings. The wine in the expensive bottle was described as “agreeable, complex, balanced, and rounded” while the identical wine with a cheap-looking label was said to be “weak, short, light, flat, and faulty.”"

Lehrer writes:
"What these wine experiments illuminate is the omnipresence of subjectivity….Our human brain has been designed to believe itself, wired so that prejudices feel like facts, opinions are indistinguishable from the actual sensations. If we think the wine is cheap, it will taste cheap. And if we think we are tasting a Grand Cru, then we will taste a Grand Cru.”

And this one is really wild.  Harvard psychologist Ellen Langer studied hotel room attendants who regularly went up and down stairs, pushed vacuums, stretched and other forms of movement for their cleaning work.  When surveyed they all said they “didn’t exercise.”  Half of the 84 women were told their work-related movement met the standards for the Surgeon General’s definition of an active lifestyle, the other was told they did not.  When measured a month later, the group who believed they were active saw a decrease in weight and waist-to-hip ratio and a ten percent drop in blood pressure. None of the maids had changed their routines. The only difference between the groups is how they viewed what they did…and the body responded as if it they exercised more even when they hadn’t!

So what does this mean for the average person who has accumulated a lifetime of experiences and beliefs? Cheney writes:
“Every situation or event, past, present, or future becomes what your brain defines it to be. In this way, your experience of reality is your own creation. Your brain even physically responds by reinforcing neural connections that coincide with your predominant, habitual thinking, a concept known as neuroplasticity. In other words, your recurrent thinking patterns physically shape your brain’s form and function which then reinforces and encourages more of the same kind of thinking.”

TOOLS TO USE
You can influence your brain in two main ways: internally by your thoughts, feelings, hopes and imagining; and externally, by the ways in which you seek to develop or reinforce inputs. 

Internally, we can use these three tools to in effect “reprogram” ourselves:

• Mindfulness-which disrupts and changes the Default Mode Network (that groove of habits and pathways).
• Meditation-which increases our neuroplasticity and helps us form new pathways.
• Visualization-Imagining a situation fires neurons and affects the chemicals released very much like actually doing something, again strengthening and making new pathways in the brain.

The discipline we practice in yoga to stay present and mindful helps us be conscious about building new habits, thereby changing our "default."  Our meditation actually builds up the size and activity in parts of our brain dealing with learning, memory, emotional regulation, and perspective and as well as neural connectivity and cognitive function according to Dr. Sanjana Gupta (What Happens to Your Brain When You Meditate Every Day?, verywellmind.com, January 6, 2024.)

​Externally, we can shake things up!  Generally, we want to stay open to new and differing stimuli. For instance, we might:

• Have new experiences like traveling, meeting new people or learning something new.
• Do things in a new way.  That’s why I change up how we get into shapes, the order we do things, and being playful and mindful about how to move.
• Change your routine.  Even stepping off your nondominant foot, or changing your exercise or habitual practices helps your brain become more adaptive and resilient.
• Be social.  Really listen to your friends and loved ones.  Put yourself in new social situations or enter them with a more open mindset. 

 
It can be daunting to undo a lifetime of old inputs and pathways which affect our beliefs and systems of reaction to them.  But I personally know it can be done.  I struggled with intermittent, sometimes deep depression as a youth into young adulthood in response to trauma.  Over the years I’ve very consciously worked to change from a stance of victimhood and hopelessness.  Am I a work in progress?  You bet!  But I know that I am a resilient, capable and amazing person whose life includes an abundance of everything I care about—including joys large and small.  Does it erase every hard time?  Oh no, but my toolbox is full and I know I can handle what comes.  I am so grateful for the practices of yoga, meditation and Sacred Anatomy Energy Medicine which help me to grow and thrive. 
 

What is this odd photo?  It's me taking my golf cart to the "big store" to load up on groceries.  I strap 'em on the back, feeling a wee bit ridiculous as I buzz down the main drags of Key West with my haul. For the little stuff, I hit the farmer's markets and little grocery on my bike.  So much fun.
 
I'm including this partly for the absurdity value, but also because I want to share a story about embracing our whole self with joy.  In an odd way, it relates to President's Day which we celebrate this coming week.  The presidents we celebrate demonstrated amazing integrity in the face of really stiff challenges.  Were they perfect?  Of course not, but somehow they rose above the doubts and fears that keep us from acting from our strongest, best place.
 
So what do those lofty leaders have to do with me and my golf cart? Well, like every other human I know, I've had my own doubts, fears and challenges.  And when I've shared about the amazing abundance of getting to be in Key West for the winter, I have felt a tinge of embarrassment at times.   
 
So my self-study led me to what was underneath that guilt. And the answer for me was fear, a fear that I hear in different forms and with differing answering responses from a lot of people.  Am I enough/ do I deserve good things?  For a lot of years, my way of resolving that fear was to try and "earn" love and abundance through service.  That was pretty natural.  I'm a nurturer by nature, but like any quality, it can become a shadow quality with a destructive edge. For me that usually means giving beyond my physical capability until I’m ill or injured.  The Universe and my body speak, but I don’t always listen!
 
But what I've been learning is that I AM loved and lovable just by my very existence and me spitting on the gifts of this life or squandering my light and the accompanying joys of living serves NO ONE.  Killing myself to "deserve" that love helps no one. In fact, what I'm learning is that the more I accept and celebrate these Universal gifts, the more I'm able to share and expand the light for others.  
 
What I've found is a calling to help others embrace their own wholeness, help one another shed our old fear-based and crippling beliefs, and assist others to step into their own Divinity so that they, too, may share what they're here to offer the world.  The more we can take on that journey, the more integrity and power we bring to our existence.  
 
If any of this sharing made you uncomfortable, irritated or judgemental, that's ok!  I invite you to explore these and any emotions you encounter as well as the physical places where those emotions land.  What great feeding ground for your own discoveries. Why do you feel something? What's underneath that feeling?  Persist and I know you'll land on your inner wisdom, too, even it it's to say, "She's wrong!"  Welcome to awakeness.
 
And if it made you think, hmm, that’s familiar.  Again, welcome to becoming awake!  I’m always happy to chat, share, disagree, explore. Reach out!